It seems that I'm trap in my past. It's so painful to see yourself suffering. Even if I had the key, I still don't know how to use it. Isn't it ironic that I can't control my own nature? Is it because of my environment? my past? my emotions?

I also can't understand this feeling of being more comfortable in school than home? Why I always wear a happy mask at school while somber mask at home? Opposite, isn't it? Instead of improving, it keeps turning back.

Last thing I can't understand lately is that why most of us, teenagers, always use the excuses "Can I get my own life?" or "Leave me alone!"...something like that. I think our parents have the responsibility to check us, their children...because they love you. They don't want you to suffer. That's how I understand their part.

*sigh* So many questions and so little time. As I travel along my life towards God, I'll find the answers.

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